Friday, July 16, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The water aerobics are fantastic. If you haven't tried them you should. It is great low impact cardio work. But when you get out of the pool you can tell you have worked every muscle in your body. Not sure how, but you do work up a sweat, even in a cold pool. lol! Hoping to be able to continue with the water aerobics throughout the winter at the local high school. We should find out this week.
Zumba was AMAZING! That is all I keep saying about it. I sweated my butt off! lol! It was hard, but fun. You are doing Latin dancing. It's fast and your hour is up in no time. I'm hoping to find a class that I can attend on a regular basis. The Wednesday night class won't work in a few weeks. We have bible study on Wed at 7:00 and I'm the leader. Soooo, I probably need to be there. lol!
I'm just really amazed that I'm feeling so strong. I've really upped the exercise game and I'm liking it. I want to exercise, and I'm seeking out ways to do it. If I had a pool at my house I would be doing water aerobics twice a day every day! I have FINALLY found a exercise that I love! And it is helping me find more ways to enjoy exercise.
My goal for tomorrow is to stay within my 37 pts, drink 8 glasses of water, and find some form of exercise.
Have a blessed day!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
So, take a minute today and just be thankful for everything you have. Hug your loved ones and thank God for all the blessings He has given you! I know that I am!
Have a blessed day!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
We wanted Shay to get her room COMPLETELY clean before she left. (which if any of you have an 18 yr old with a messy room you now what an undertaking that has been) We pulled everything out of the closet and has went through an purged a LOT of stuff. It has really gotten me in the mood to completely clean house. I'm planning on going through my room and Seth's room this week. I've already started in my living room. I'm ready to have a clutter free life, and that means all of it. I'm ready to get everything in order.
I'm ready to purge myself of everything that is holding me back. So, I'm making a new plan. This plan includes getting rid of anything just lying around collecting dust, paying off bills, getting work done on the house, making a menu, and making an exercise plan. I just want to be more organized. I've made a vow with myself that I'm going to tackle all of this. I can't expect to lose weight and maintain it if the rest of my life is in disarray. Kevin and I are setting down tomorrow night to discuss all of this and make a reasonable plan. I'll let you know how it goes.
I've done really well on the exercise plan this last week. Wednesday I went to the gym, Thurs I worked in the yard with my dear friend Annie for 3 hrs and then did water aerobics for an hour. Friday I worked in the house cleaning, moving furniture, and really got my heart rate up. Yesterday and today I haven't had time to exercise. My plan for tomorrow is to get some walking in and maybe the Biggest Loser workout. (i still haven't done that yet)
Plan for tomorrow: stay within my 37 WW pts, drink 8 glasses of water, walk, exercise, and make a plan with Kevin. A side note: I, also, have to take Shay to the Louisville airport (sending my firstborn to France sniff, sniff) and take Seth to 4-H at 6:00. So, it will be another busy day! lol! But what would life be if it was slow and boring.
Also, I hope you all are as blessed as I am to have a great dad to spend Father's Day with. We took him out to eat after church this morning. It was great spending time with him and mom. I'm very blessed to have the parents that I have. I'm doubly blessed to have a wonderful husband that is a fantastic dad! Love you Kevin and Dad! Thanks for everything you do!
Have a blessed day!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
I have been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds since Christmas. I'm tired of it!!!!! I've really started doing well on the physical activity part, but am still struggling with the food. I said I was going to post my food choices, but I still haven't. Mainly, because I'm not writing anything down all day long! :( When I was tracking I lost weight. It's not a magical thing, it's just being aware of what I'm putting in my mouth. So, my goal for tomorrow is to track everything I eat.
I did water aerobics with my friend Annie today, she has come up with a wonderful routine for us. The plan is to do the water aerobics 2 to 3 times a week, and we are going to start going to Zumba twice a week. I know it's going to kick my butt, but I'm really looking forward to it. Have any of you tried it?
OK, my plan for tomorrow is: track ALL my food, get 8 glasses of water in, see Andrea (my cognitive behavioral therapist) and get in my Biggest Loser Workout.
Have a blessed day!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I can relate so much with her! I have no doubt in my mind that this would have been me in a few short years if I had decided to do something about it! Food is a very hard addiction, because you can't quite eatting you have to learn to control it.
How does this video affect you?
Have a blessed day!
On June 4th she wrote about being "Wholehearted" with her weight loss and it completely inspired me. I've been struggling again, and I really needed this. Thought someone else might needed to hear this too. Enjoy!
Have a blessed day!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Had a wonderful service at church Sunday. We have a "new" pastor for the next 3 months. Our minister's daughter, Muriel, just graduated from seminary. She is preaching for our church this summer while Chip is teaching at the seminary, going to Niger, and taking a trip with his wife. We will miss them, but it is great to see things through new eyes. Muriel is doing a great job!
To the title of this blog. Work has been very quiet and tense the last week and a half, which just makes me want to eat! I know that I'm filling an emotional problem with the food, but that doesn't make it any easier. I'm a very vocal person and when you only work with one other person and they are being extremely quiet it makes it hard. I really like the lady I work with, but the quiet gets to me. I start feeling like I've done something to upset her. Which I know that she wasn't happy with me last week, but it was unavoidable. I wasn't going to miss Shay's college orientation. Just pray that it gets better again, (Which I know it will, I've been working with her for 4 yrs now) and that I find another way to deal with my emotional stuff other than feeding it.
My plan tomorrow is to track my pts and then post my food choices on this blog. I think it will help keep me on track better. As for exercise, I'm going to do the Biggest Loser Workout again and maybe walk tomorrow evening if it is cool enough.
Have a blessed day!
Friday, June 4, 2010
Didn't stay on track with my food today. It was very hard not being at home to make the meals. We left at 6:00 am and didn't get home until 4:30. Then I immediately left again. lol! But I got A LOT of walking in. So, back to it tomorrow. The next 2 days are going to be hard food days, but I'm making a plan now to help make it not as stressful.
Some of you know that I'm a serious metal head when it comes to my music. Don't get me wrong, I love almost all music, but I LOVE metal and hard rock. I've been trying to find a christian alternative to this and was very pleased to find Skillet last week. We already listen to Flyleaf, but it is hard to find a truly metal christian band. At least, it has been for us. So, I'm listening to the CD and one of the songs really, really stood out to me. It's called Monster and it described exactly how I feel when the "Beast" shows up. It put to music how I've felt about my weight, lack of control, and complete addiction. Right now I'm in a really good place and haven't had to deal with the "Beast" since my candy bar incident, but it does feel like it looms right under my skin. I'm going to try and post the video off of YouTube.
My plan for tomorrow is to eat a healthy breakfast before I head to the food sell at the auction. (The woman's guild at my church is doing a food stand at an auction. I just know there won't be anything healthy to eat. lol!) Eat a good lunch at home before heading to a friend's birthday party and eating a healthy snack before heading to the graduation party. See what I mean about tough food day! lol! I'm going to try and get in my Biggest Loser workout, also.
Have a blessed day!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
I'd like to thank you all for the kind comments and encouragement you gave me. It meant a lot. Thanks, Lis, for ALWAYS being there for me! Elisa is "one of my girls". lol! My core group that keeps me sane.
As I promised a few blogs ago I have some pics to share with you all. Here we go!
This is the Tri-Poster we made for the choir concert.
This is Shay with her Outstanding Musician award for choir. Sorry it's sideways. Can't figure out how to edit the photo once it's on the blog.
This is the four of us after graduation! So proud of our Shay!
Well, me plan for tomorrow is to stay within 37 pts and try to get some exercise in. I have to get back on track with the exercise. I'm having a lot of knee issues, but I have to find something to do.
Have a blessed day!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
It's been a rough weekend food wise. Tooo many parties!!!! I'm back on the wagon as of tomorrow. Have no idea how many pts I've had in the last two days and didn't have time for any walking either.
On an up note, Shay's Baccalaureate service was fantastic. She did one of the readings and the choir sang. Our minister and his daughter has the message. I'll post pics later.
Hope everyone had a great weekend and has a blessed day!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
This week and next are extremely busy with Shay graduating on May 29th. It's 11:00 pm right now and we just got done putting her tri-fold poster for choir together. I'll take a pic and post it soon. It turned out really well.
I posted a new pic of myself at 322, 50 pounds lighter in the same outfit as before. Let me know if you can tell any difference. Weigh in is tomorrow, so I'll update my status then. I'm extremely exhausted. Heading to bed!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Monday, May 17, 2010
In 40 minutes, we walked 6669 feet or 1.26 miles. Not that impressive. It will still take me close to an hour and a half to complete the 5K. It is a race, but I'm trying to focus on the fact that just doing it and finishing it will be an accomplishment. I'm just very scared that if I start I won't be able to finish. I'm tired of not finishing things. But I'm even more tired of not starting for the fear of not finishing. Am I making any sense? LOL!
I was watching Joyce Meyer's today and she was talking about Satan getting in our way. I feel like he is smack in the middle of my path with this 5K. Maybe I'm just reading too much into it, but I just want to scream at him to move over. So, this is my platform. Get behind me Satan! The Lord knows I'm leaning on Him at this point. He will hold me up and he's given me lots of great people to help me. Just got to keep the chin up and keep moving.
I did ok with the food today. Didn't track, but think I came in really close on points. My 3 month journal is full, so I'm trying to keep track in my head until Thurs. Might have to get a notebook. Did really well with the exercise. Plan for tomorrow is to walk 35 min and stay within 37 WW pts. Also, trying to get 6 glasses of water in a day.
Have Lady's Lunch Bunch tomorrow, pray I have the will to pick the right food and not the wonderful breadsticks at Caper's. LOL!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Friday: I worked all day, but at lunch went to the gym. I was only able to walk for 22 min on the treadmill before my knee was killing me. I was having shooting pains in my left knee. That scared me, but I was hoping it would be a one time deal. I came in at 32 pts for the day, and was very happy about that.
Saturday: I walked at the high school track with Annie for 30 minutes. It took me 25 mins to make a mile. I wasn't really happy about the time, but I was happy that my knee didn't start hurting until the end. I think the spongy track helped. Then we went to the school pool and did 45 min of water aerobics. That was FANTASTIC!!!! I had such a good time with Annie. I was feeling very blessed to have such a wonderful friend. Then I started thinking about the fact that I have SOOOO many wonderful friends who are helping me with my walking. Not to mention how supportive my family is, it's almost overwhelming how many blessings the Lord has given me! That night we went to Mom and Dad's for Haelix's b-day party. I had one small scope of ice cream and a small piece of cake. I still came in at 36 pts for the day!
Today: This is my rest day for the walking program. We went to church and Shay sang. She's our songbird! She did a great job! Mom, Dad, Kyah, and Haelix came to church to hear her. So, the day started out great. We had a carry-in after church that I just couldn't stay for. I felt too tempted by all that good food. So, we went shopping and spent 2 1/2 hrs in Wal-mart, Maurices, and The Shoe Show. lol! So, much for the resting. Done well with the eatting today too!
Tomorrow: Already have plans with Gayle to walk after work. So, it's looking good too! I just want to thank everyone that is supporting my on my journey! THANKS SO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
This year is so full of first and lasts! Shay's high school career is soon to be over, but her adult life is only beginning. I kind of feel the same way about my weight loss. This is the last year I will ever be in the 300's and I'm very ready for my life to begin. I've been in a holding pattern watching life pass me by. Under all of this weight there is a very adventurous person. I'm ready to live that life. I'm ready to start having people want to be like me, instead of me wanting to be like other people.
I went for a walk with Gayle today and she was telling me how proud she was of me. I was really confused by this, because in my eyes I haven't done anything worth feeling pride yet. She continued to say that she could not walk as far as I do if she had another person on her back. I am carrying another person with me ALL the time, but I'm trying to shed that person. That is something to be proud about. Thanks Gayle for the inspiration today!
As for my goals, I walked 26 mins today, but didn't do a very good job tracking my food. I'm going to work on that tomorrow. I, also, have a walking date with Lisa tomorrow. So, tomorrow is looking on track. Well, I need to go work on my bible study.
Have a great day!
Monday, May 10, 2010
I imagine this is how drug addicts feel about there drug of choice. They love the way it feels when they are getting their fix, but then hate themselves for wanting and NEEDING it so badly. That is how I feel about food. When I'm on the hunt for exactly what I'm craving or in the middle of eatting the delicious food I'm high, but then shortly after (and sometimes during) I hate the fact that I let myself binge. I have to eat to live, but I don't. I LIVE TO EAT!!!!!
Case and point, I've been fighting this thing for two days, then this evening I just gave in. I eat the rest of the Baked Doritoes and the last piece of Angel Food cake. I know, this wasn't a full on binge, but I still just couldn't control it. I just hope some day that I will get past this and be able to have a normal relationship with food! lol!
I haven't walked in two days, but will be back on track tomorrow. My daughter fell and sprained her ankle very badly, so that kind of put a damper on my plans for today. Hope you are up and feeling better soon, Shay!
Plan for tomorrow is: Start over with journaling my food, get a 26 min walk in, and see Andrea (my behavioural therapist). Should be a great day!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Today I hit another big mile stone. I walked a mile in 19 MINUTES!!!!! I've been so worried about how long this 5k was going to take and I was really happy with my time today. I actually walked for 26 minutes with Shay. We have a wonderful spot to walk at Lincoln Boyhood and the weather was great.
I love walking with Shay. She is a great person. I know that a lot of teens don't want to spend time with their parents and when they do they are completely quiet. But not my Shay, she shares things with me that most kids wouldn't with their parents. She is a much better teen then I was. LOL!!! But it is true. We have found a good balance between parent and friend. I am the parent and she respects that, but because I respect her she will come to me as a friend. Not to say that we haven't bucked heads or that I'm not the bain of her existance at times. But all in all, the teen years haven't been bad and I'm going to miss her like crazy next fall! Love you ShayShay!!!
Hope you all are having a wonderful Sat!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Today has been a really good day, at moments. I went to the gym at lunch. When I say gym, I mean the room with gym equipment in our community center. We are rural, we don't have a big gym within 20 miles of us. But it's nice and I was the only one there, even better! I wanted to walk for 24 mins, but just after 10 mins I was done. My legs were screaming. I was walking at a 2.8. (which is fast for me). Then I worked with the free weights and rode the bike for another 10 mins. I got a really good workout, but I was very upset about the walking. I'm suppose to walk a 5K on June 12th. I was thinking, how in the world am I going to make it 3.1 miles when today I couldn't even make it 11 mins??? This, of course, was one of the low moments of the day. I was really upset about it.
Then I came home and started watching last weeks Biggest Loser. They were doing a 5K. Most of the walkers/runners made it in under 1 hr. So, I'm sitting there still thinking there is no way I'm going to be able to walk a 5K. Then, the day started to turn around. One of the walkers hadn't made it to the finish line yet. This poor woman was having such a hard time that her daughter was walking in front of her and she was holding onto her daughters shoulders for support, but she never quit!!! She said that she uses the scooter at Wal-mart, because she can't even walk long enough to get her groceries! By now I was crying. If this courageous woman can walk a 5K, so can I! She finished the race, it took her over 2 hrs, but she finished. I will finish too! I don't care if I'm the last one to cross the line. Thank you Lord for helping me break through my fears!!!!
Food wise I've done really well today. I'm in at 31 points and I earned 5 pts for the exercise. My plan for tomorrow is to go back to the gym and try again. Tomorrow night is the band banquet at the high school, and then Wed is the Mother/Daughter Banquet at church. Lots of food!!! Wish me luck!!
Have a great day!
Friday, April 30, 2010
I really think blogging is going to help. I'm not saying it is going to be easy, but I am determined to keep myself and this blog honest about what I am eatting and exercising. So, unless I want to get on here and blog that I have overeatten or that I choice not to exercise. I have to get off my butt and do what will make me healthy!
Right now I'm at 26 points for the day, it's not quite bedtime yet, but I am going to stay within my points for the day. I, also, got my walking in. I walked, by myself, for 24 mins this evening. I have to tell you that the walking alone sucks! I hurt all over before it was even half done. The music wasn't enough to distract me from the time and the pain. I do a lot better when I walk with Kevin, the kids, or friends. But I did persevere. I walked on the path in our woods, I won't be able to do that anymore. My shoes were covered in ticks by the time I was done. So, I'm going to have to either walk at the church, Lincoln Boyhood, or Yellig park. lol!
Tomorrow's goals are to stay within my 37 points and walk for 24 min. They are calling for rain here tomorrow, so I'm going to have to walk the treadmill, ugh! Wish me luck! LOL!!!
Hope you have a wonderful day!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
It, actually, has been a really good day. I had my picnic and walk with Mary Beth, Gayle, Lisa and our little helpers, Hadley, Xia, Sadie and Katie. I was a great time. We had wonderful fellowship while we ate (I had a 3 inch ham and cheese sub with lettuce and a bag of baked lays from Subway), while we walked our 22 mins, and while we finished tacking a quilt for the church picnic. It was a much needed time for me today. I hope all of you have wonderful friends to lean on! It makes life a lot easier.
This evening at Weight Watchers, I weighed in at 326 pounds. That is a loss of 4 pounds for a grand total of 46 pounds!!!!! I was very happy with this. I'm hoping that the steriods will not mess with my weight loss for next week. Weight Watchers is a fantastic plan, I can't say enough good about it. The key, of course, is following the plan. That is where I get in trouble sometimes. If I track my points and follow the exercise plan I'm going to lose weight. That is the tall and short of it.
Another great thing that happened this week is my son, Seth, lost 3 1/2 pounds. He is 10 yrs old and weighs 155 pounds. He is about 4 ft 10 inchs tall. (I asked his permission before posting his weight) He was soooo proud of himself. He is a very, very, very picky eater and food has been a struggle. All we have done differently this week is, move more and eat less. He is not on a diet, we are cutting back on some of the snacking and trying to eat better food. But you could just see his face glowing when he saw that he had accomplished this, because we are actually just trying to maintain his current weight.
I'm going to sign off for tonight. The goal for tomorrow is to journal my food, stay within my 37 points and walk 24 minutes. Have a blessed night!
To update you on my progress, I did very well Tuesday with my points and with the walking. Kevin, Shay, & I walked at the city park in Boonville and Seth played basketball. It was a very nice walk and I made the whole 22 min without stopping!!! I was very proud of myself. Yesterday, I stayed within my points, but didn't get the walking in. The root canal put a kink in my plans. I was a little sore, but not too bad. Everything was going really well, UNTIL! I hate that word, but anyhow, there isn't much to do at 2:00 in the morning except watch tv and eat. I fought the urge for well over an hour before I gave in. I'm not proud that I let my addiction win out, but I am proud that I didn't go into a complete binge. I ate peanut butter and jelly first, and later had oyster crackers. I'm not keeping chips in the house and it was the only crunchy, salty item I could find. So, I did end-up blowing my points, but I'm not going to let that get me down. I'm back on point this morning. I have a wonderful plan for exercise today and I'm tracking my points again, as of 6:00 this morning.
Let me tell you my plan for today. I'm very blessed to have a very good, core group of friends that are my prayer girls! Lisa, Mary Beth, Gayle, and Judy. We meet every Wednesday night for group. We have bible study, share our thoughts, problems, funny stories, and pray together. Right now we are doing a Beth Moore Bible Study - A Woman's Heart:Gods Resting Place (an amazing study, if you haven't done one of Beth's studies you should) and we have added Nancy, Jeanne, and Benita to this group. Last night one of my prayer requests was for my walking program. I have been struggling with it. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing it, but it isn't fun. So, Gayle and Mary Beth offered to walk with me today and be my support. So, we are meeting at the church's shelter house for a picnic lunch at noon and then walking my 22 min. Lisa may be joining us, also. I'm so excited to be walking with them. I love these ladies so much! I feel like God has given me a team to help me through this difficult time. Kevin, Shay, Seth, Gayle, Mary Beth, and Lisa! WOW!!! Now you can see how blessed I am. Thank you, Jesus! With support like this how can I fail!
Hope you have a great day, I'll post later with my weigh-in for the week and let you know how the walking went. God Bless!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
My goal for today is to stay in my 37 point range and to walk my 22 mins. I'll let you know how it goes!