That is suppose to be the first step to recovery. At least, that is what I've seen and read. You admit you have a problem and it gets easier to manage. Well, real life isn't like TV or books. I have admitted that I have a problem, but it isn't fixing anything. I have to now use that as a tool to make myself better and not an excuse to eat everything that I see. I feel like sometimes I use the food addiction as a crutch in my own head. I've had a bad day or a good day and I want to eat, in my head I'm waging a war and it's easy to say "I have a problem, it's not my fault" and then just eat. I'm working on it, but my internal dialog has to change. Andrea (my therapist) says that you have to "think about what you are thinking". It's a lot harder than it sounds.
I have been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds since Christmas. I'm tired of it!!!!! I've really started doing well on the physical activity part, but am still struggling with the food. I said I was going to post my food choices, but I still haven't. Mainly, because I'm not writing anything down all day long! :( When I was tracking I lost weight. It's not a magical thing, it's just being aware of what I'm putting in my mouth. So, my goal for tomorrow is to track everything I eat.
I did water aerobics with my friend Annie today, she has come up with a wonderful routine for us. The plan is to do the water aerobics 2 to 3 times a week, and we are going to start going to Zumba twice a week. I know it's going to kick my butt, but I'm really looking forward to it. Have any of you tried it?
OK, my plan for tomorrow is: track ALL my food, get 8 glasses of water in, see Andrea (my cognitive behavioral therapist) and get in my Biggest Loser Workout.
Have a blessed day!
5 months ago