Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
It's been a rough weekend food wise. Tooo many parties!!!! I'm back on the wagon as of tomorrow. Have no idea how many pts I've had in the last two days and didn't have time for any walking either.
On an up note, Shay's Baccalaureate service was fantastic. She did one of the readings and the choir sang. Our minister and his daughter has the message. I'll post pics later.
Hope everyone had a great weekend and has a blessed day!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
This week and next are extremely busy with Shay graduating on May 29th. It's 11:00 pm right now and we just got done putting her tri-fold poster for choir together. I'll take a pic and post it soon. It turned out really well.
I posted a new pic of myself at 322, 50 pounds lighter in the same outfit as before. Let me know if you can tell any difference. Weigh in is tomorrow, so I'll update my status then. I'm extremely exhausted. Heading to bed!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Monday, May 17, 2010
In 40 minutes, we walked 6669 feet or 1.26 miles. Not that impressive. It will still take me close to an hour and a half to complete the 5K. It is a race, but I'm trying to focus on the fact that just doing it and finishing it will be an accomplishment. I'm just very scared that if I start I won't be able to finish. I'm tired of not finishing things. But I'm even more tired of not starting for the fear of not finishing. Am I making any sense? LOL!
I was watching Joyce Meyer's today and she was talking about Satan getting in our way. I feel like he is smack in the middle of my path with this 5K. Maybe I'm just reading too much into it, but I just want to scream at him to move over. So, this is my platform. Get behind me Satan! The Lord knows I'm leaning on Him at this point. He will hold me up and he's given me lots of great people to help me. Just got to keep the chin up and keep moving.
I did ok with the food today. Didn't track, but think I came in really close on points. My 3 month journal is full, so I'm trying to keep track in my head until Thurs. Might have to get a notebook. Did really well with the exercise. Plan for tomorrow is to walk 35 min and stay within 37 WW pts. Also, trying to get 6 glasses of water in a day.
Have Lady's Lunch Bunch tomorrow, pray I have the will to pick the right food and not the wonderful breadsticks at Caper's. LOL!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Friday: I worked all day, but at lunch went to the gym. I was only able to walk for 22 min on the treadmill before my knee was killing me. I was having shooting pains in my left knee. That scared me, but I was hoping it would be a one time deal. I came in at 32 pts for the day, and was very happy about that.
Saturday: I walked at the high school track with Annie for 30 minutes. It took me 25 mins to make a mile. I wasn't really happy about the time, but I was happy that my knee didn't start hurting until the end. I think the spongy track helped. Then we went to the school pool and did 45 min of water aerobics. That was FANTASTIC!!!! I had such a good time with Annie. I was feeling very blessed to have such a wonderful friend. Then I started thinking about the fact that I have SOOOO many wonderful friends who are helping me with my walking. Not to mention how supportive my family is, it's almost overwhelming how many blessings the Lord has given me! That night we went to Mom and Dad's for Haelix's b-day party. I had one small scope of ice cream and a small piece of cake. I still came in at 36 pts for the day!
Today: This is my rest day for the walking program. We went to church and Shay sang. She's our songbird! She did a great job! Mom, Dad, Kyah, and Haelix came to church to hear her. So, the day started out great. We had a carry-in after church that I just couldn't stay for. I felt too tempted by all that good food. So, we went shopping and spent 2 1/2 hrs in Wal-mart, Maurices, and The Shoe Show. lol! So, much for the resting. Done well with the eatting today too!
Tomorrow: Already have plans with Gayle to walk after work. So, it's looking good too! I just want to thank everyone that is supporting my on my journey! THANKS SO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
Have a blessed day!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
This year is so full of first and lasts! Shay's high school career is soon to be over, but her adult life is only beginning. I kind of feel the same way about my weight loss. This is the last year I will ever be in the 300's and I'm very ready for my life to begin. I've been in a holding pattern watching life pass me by. Under all of this weight there is a very adventurous person. I'm ready to live that life. I'm ready to start having people want to be like me, instead of me wanting to be like other people.
I went for a walk with Gayle today and she was telling me how proud she was of me. I was really confused by this, because in my eyes I haven't done anything worth feeling pride yet. She continued to say that she could not walk as far as I do if she had another person on her back. I am carrying another person with me ALL the time, but I'm trying to shed that person. That is something to be proud about. Thanks Gayle for the inspiration today!
As for my goals, I walked 26 mins today, but didn't do a very good job tracking my food. I'm going to work on that tomorrow. I, also, have a walking date with Lisa tomorrow. So, tomorrow is looking on track. Well, I need to go work on my bible study.
Have a great day!
Monday, May 10, 2010
I imagine this is how drug addicts feel about there drug of choice. They love the way it feels when they are getting their fix, but then hate themselves for wanting and NEEDING it so badly. That is how I feel about food. When I'm on the hunt for exactly what I'm craving or in the middle of eatting the delicious food I'm high, but then shortly after (and sometimes during) I hate the fact that I let myself binge. I have to eat to live, but I don't. I LIVE TO EAT!!!!!
Case and point, I've been fighting this thing for two days, then this evening I just gave in. I eat the rest of the Baked Doritoes and the last piece of Angel Food cake. I know, this wasn't a full on binge, but I still just couldn't control it. I just hope some day that I will get past this and be able to have a normal relationship with food! lol!
I haven't walked in two days, but will be back on track tomorrow. My daughter fell and sprained her ankle very badly, so that kind of put a damper on my plans for today. Hope you are up and feeling better soon, Shay!
Plan for tomorrow is: Start over with journaling my food, get a 26 min walk in, and see Andrea (my behavioural therapist). Should be a great day!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Today I hit another big mile stone. I walked a mile in 19 MINUTES!!!!! I've been so worried about how long this 5k was going to take and I was really happy with my time today. I actually walked for 26 minutes with Shay. We have a wonderful spot to walk at Lincoln Boyhood and the weather was great.
I love walking with Shay. She is a great person. I know that a lot of teens don't want to spend time with their parents and when they do they are completely quiet. But not my Shay, she shares things with me that most kids wouldn't with their parents. She is a much better teen then I was. LOL!!! But it is true. We have found a good balance between parent and friend. I am the parent and she respects that, but because I respect her she will come to me as a friend. Not to say that we haven't bucked heads or that I'm not the bain of her existance at times. But all in all, the teen years haven't been bad and I'm going to miss her like crazy next fall! Love you ShayShay!!!
Hope you all are having a wonderful Sat!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Today has been a really good day, at moments. I went to the gym at lunch. When I say gym, I mean the room with gym equipment in our community center. We are rural, we don't have a big gym within 20 miles of us. But it's nice and I was the only one there, even better! I wanted to walk for 24 mins, but just after 10 mins I was done. My legs were screaming. I was walking at a 2.8. (which is fast for me). Then I worked with the free weights and rode the bike for another 10 mins. I got a really good workout, but I was very upset about the walking. I'm suppose to walk a 5K on June 12th. I was thinking, how in the world am I going to make it 3.1 miles when today I couldn't even make it 11 mins??? This, of course, was one of the low moments of the day. I was really upset about it.
Then I came home and started watching last weeks Biggest Loser. They were doing a 5K. Most of the walkers/runners made it in under 1 hr. So, I'm sitting there still thinking there is no way I'm going to be able to walk a 5K. Then, the day started to turn around. One of the walkers hadn't made it to the finish line yet. This poor woman was having such a hard time that her daughter was walking in front of her and she was holding onto her daughters shoulders for support, but she never quit!!! She said that she uses the scooter at Wal-mart, because she can't even walk long enough to get her groceries! By now I was crying. If this courageous woman can walk a 5K, so can I! She finished the race, it took her over 2 hrs, but she finished. I will finish too! I don't care if I'm the last one to cross the line. Thank you Lord for helping me break through my fears!!!!
Food wise I've done really well today. I'm in at 31 points and I earned 5 pts for the exercise. My plan for tomorrow is to go back to the gym and try again. Tomorrow night is the band banquet at the high school, and then Wed is the Mother/Daughter Banquet at church. Lots of food!!! Wish me luck!!
Have a great day!