UGH!!!! That is all I have to say about food today. I have been fighting the beast all day. I have been very stressed, not always in the best mood, and Saturday realized that you can never go home again. (more on that in a moment) Of course, my way of dealing with anything is to eat. That beast starts whispering in my ear about how good eatting will make me feel. I fought it off ALMOST all day. I even did well at the choir banquet tonight, then I got home and Shay's candy bars were staring me in the face. I completely caved and it turned into an all out binge. I eat FIVE candy bars, how awful and gross is that!!!! The worst part is that while I was eatting them I felt complete relief. It makes me want to cry. I now feel sick that I let the beast take over, but I can't take it back. I have an appt with Andrea (my congenitive behaviourial therapist) tomorrow, and hopefully she will be able to help. I don't know what else to do.
Back to the "you can never go home" comment. We went to two graduation parties this last weekend in our old hometown and it was very strange. These were our very close friends and it wasn't comfortable. We are all different now and conversation felt very forced. I was glad to see everyone, but it was sad to see that we didn't have much to talk about anymore. Kind of broke my heart. I already knew that I was very happy living in Lamar, but this last weekend just strengthened my love for the place.
Ok, to some happy notes. Today was Shay's Senior Choir Banquet. She received several awards. (I'll try and post a pic tomorrow) But the best award she received tonight was Outstanding Musician. We are soooo proud of her!!! She sang her Senior Solo and just about brought the house down! She did a wonderful job! Love you Shay!
So, my plan for tomorrow is to see Andrea, stay within my 37 pts, and walk at the mall with Kevin. It has almost gotten too hot to walk outside.
Have a blessed day!